All my life I felt like the one everyone avoided. I never fit into groups. I missed all the interactions of the other kids that I met. They all seemed to do well in groups. I had no idea what they were talking about. All the little facial expressions and non verbal communications were like a big mistery. When it cameto listening to a group of people talking it was like listening to multiple layered conversations where words came to me like a word salad which meant getting meaning out of it was impossible. I always felt at peace alone with the environment. I developed a good mechanical relationship with the environment and was a good builder and fixer of almost any inaniment thing. I would learn the basics of something and develop it from there. I always found it important to understand the basics of what I was learning. For that reason I was a very slow learner. Where others memorized I had to understand. That has never changed. After a few years as a computer programer I learned that fast was the first mistake. Miss one tiny detail and the computer makes it into a mountain and you find yourself in a mess very fast. Get the first steps right and the rest fits in naturally.
The latest part of my life was as an artist and spiritual explorer. As an abstract artist I developed my art from the most basic elements. First I thought what should I use. I started in clay and liked the feel of it. When things blew up in the kiln I got discouraged. Several years later I decided to experiment with acrylic paint. I wanted to find a better substrate than canvas. It is a meterial that will rot. I went looking fore space age materials that would last and settled on aluminum and pollyvinylchloride sheets. Over a few years I created over 750 pieces of work and from that created 23,000 images. The pandemic closed the studio space which was easy and cheap to use. The art was very meditative and I found myself in an intimate relationship with the nature of liquid paint and emotions mixing. I realized that what I was feeling was translating into the paint. Then after about a year I got stuck, so I thought about why for a long time and then I broke out of the fear of painting by painting a mental Block. It wasn’t all that great but it did create motion and got me unstuck.
Most recently I have been relooking at the artistic period and applying my creative perspective to exploring how everything happens. I started with affirmation theory and then manifestation theory. I looked at the 12 Laws of the Universe and the 12 Dimensions of Spiritual Evolution.
Then I ran across the ideas of Dr. Joe Dispensa, Teal Swan, Sadguru and others. I was reading about the American Native Church when I ran across the concept that Infinity itself carries an intelligence that permeates all that is. I started to think about where the center of that would be. Where is the center of infinity? Could that be the place from where all was created? All that has led me here today. Creating this website, Developing conversations with micro-organisms, creating the means to bring it into the regular world by creating the Center of Infinity Foundation. We are currently applying for Charitable status that will help expand the explorations into the Quantum Field and our balance in the Universe of being. Join us and take a bold step into creation. I realized that a big idea and a small idea weigh exactly the same. They both weigh nothing. So why not have a big one?